beyond me

the philosopher and the scientist will admit that there is much they do not know; but that is quite another thing from admitting that there is something which they can never know, which indeed they have no technique for discovering. To admit that there is One who lies beyond us, who exists outside all of our categories, who will not be dismissed with a name, who will not appear before the bar of our reason, nor submit to our curious inquiries: this requires a great deal of humility, more than most of us possess, so we save face by thinking God down to our level, or at least down to where we can manage him. Yet how he eludes us - aw tozer

I don't so much admit I have no clue what's going on. It's not attractive nor a quality of a "good leader" to be clueless. I find Him often outside the category of logical or rational.

My wrestling lately has been with Ephesians 2.
The fact the He lay outside my faculty, my control - yeesh, talk about uncomfortable. "I'm male, hear me roar," has been more like "hear me whimper" as of late. Ephesians 2 always wins and I don't have it all figured out and that makes me feel panicked given all the implications it carries with it. You mean getting a degree, working hard, making "right" choices won't do it - won't lay out the red carpet.
But then it set's in, the truth of Ephesians 2. The release of pressure from having to do it all. From having to save the day, from being the epicenter of the story. Not having all the answers, I can be messy, what a relief.

I like our group of people around Perimeter bc by and large we're not all that "put together." Some of us seem it at first, but have a cup of coffee with us and you find that we are just as messy as you, as everyone really.

Eddie's
Don't forget Evan and Garrett's show at Eddie's attic. See the CAL for more details.